From my journal, dated December 3rd 2013
Classes are done! Wooot! I feel pretty darn free. I now have a complete week off before exams – one free week. It’s both exhilarating and worrisome that I have nothing planned… except studying of course. I’m going to have to find some other things to do so that I don’t go stir crazy. Problem is that everyone else will be studying and therefore not free to hang out.
The past few weeks a lot of my time has been spent thinking about my asexuality. It’s so often in my thoughts, and I’ve spent hours searching for info on the Web, reading forums, learning, and I even just finished watching a documentary about it. I’ve joined the online community and have posted a couple of times. I’ve even shown interest in going to a meetup! And then today I learnt that a bunch of aces are going to Pride which is going to be in a city nearby in June! Just think that I could attend that!
Obviously there are some issues with that, most basically, would I have the guts to travel alone to a giant city that I’ve basically never been to before and meet-up with people who I’ve never met before? and find accommodation? And then take part in Pride and the LGBT+ community, which I’m not sure that I (or asexuals) feel a part of?
And most of all perhaps, what would I tell family and friends? It would involve lying or coming out.
Anyways, I still have lots of time to think this stuff through. But generally, the future is full of new opportunities. But first, I must make it through exams. And in less than 2 weeks now, I’ll be on vacation with my family! So incredibly stoked 🙂